“Knowing what to give up on and walk away from is just
as important as knowing what’s worthy of your time and attention” Dr. Justin
Tarte.
I have been procrastinating on this blog entry simply
because I didn’t know how to get started until Dr.Justin Tarte shared this
statement above.
My one word for 2018 is BREATHE.
It wasn’t until I was hospitalized for a week in early
2014 for Vestibular neuritis (vertigo) that
I learned about my anxiety. Truthfully, I had no idea this was something I was
experiencing, as well as being completely unaware of any triggers that were
stress related as a result of anxiety. While in the hospital, I was asked to
record each time I had a vertigo episode combined with or not, laryngitis. For
each calendar date, these episodes lined up with, busier than usual events at
home, work or school.
I ignored this. For years, I ignored this, passing it
off as something that just happened. A vertigo episode would pass within days
and I would move on. But, during the month of January 2014, the vertigo
sensation prolonged into weeks of sleeplessness, headaches, drowning
sensations, a nauseating experience that had me unable to focus or walk. While
in hospital, I learned about identifying my stressors and how my body would let
me know of being over-stressed by manifesting anxiety through laryngitis and
vertigo. It took three months before I could return to work on a reduced
workday schedule. Nine months before I could drive comfortably again… I even
gave up my bucket list item: Honda Rebel 500.
It has been 4 years now, and I have not had a single
vertigo sensation! I have been paying attention to my stressors and triggers,
remembering to take a moment for myself and breathe.
Over the past year / year-and-a-half, my
husband and I noticed that our boys have shown symptoms of anxiety.
Fortunately, we didn’t hesitate to seek out help. Both boys offer so much of themselves, day in and day out to their friends, school community and with family. They each are experiencing their daily lives but cautiously and with a mask. They have learned to 'put on an act' so that others don't treat them differently. With medical
guidance, consultation and ongoing support, our boys are learning to recognize triggers, manage their stressors and maintain a positive, growth mindset towards their daily interactions.
Together now, we sit with each of them and reflect on
our day or week. I am very mindful of their apprehension and possible resistance
to talking about:
- challenges overcome, positive interactions and goal
setting
- struggles or missed opportunities that need to be
revisited or considered
All of this focus and time together has brought us
closer as a family; keeping better tabs on each other.
To ensure that I am here, healthy and ready to support
my children, I take scheduled and random moments to just breathe. To bring
myself to a calm, slow and relaxed mindset. I give myself breathing
instructions: “slowly breathe in through your nose and fill your lungs with
air, hold it for a moment”, then “slowly and gently breathe out through your
mouth feeling the air leave your lungs as you feel your body beginning to
relax”. No longer entertaining the thoughts of the day (work or home) in my
head as I breathe in and out. I slow down enough to fill the air in my
breath and re-energize. This allows me to be ready, mindfully ready for
the activities in the class or at home, while leaving the day behind.
I hope to introduce breathing or meditation more regularly
with my family and hope to continue the breathing exercise a few times a week.
Asking ourselves as a family to leave behind any issues from the day, any
anxieties that they/we feel and breathe it out. By providing my children
with a few minutes to set aside the noise of the day, tear down the walls they
themselves put up as obstacles in their learning or interactions, they are open
to trust themselves, their experiences with others within their daily lives.
So why am I sharing this now? Simply, because I have
had to readjust my focus, commitment and use of time (home and/or work) as it impacts
me directly and my family. I may have turned opportunities down or postponed
activities beyond the instructional day; not because of disinterest. Instead, I
need to focus on self-care, better balance the needs of my health, my family’s
health, so that I am able to give my best to all aspects of my life and those
around me.
2016 POTENTIAL inspired by students.
2017 PERSEVERE inspired by my PLN.
2018 BREATHE inspired by my children.
